Saturday, March 19, 2005

This holiday doesn't feel like a holiday at all (I suppose its true for most of the J2s). Have being invvolved in the cchess competition on tuesday and wednesday, but lost terribly, lots of stupid moves made. Must be more awake when playing (at like 9pm in the night). Wednesday went for co practice, firstly, overshot the bus stop and had to walk a long way back. After reaching, Aaron called and said he is coming to play zhong sheng. Went to meet him but ran too fast so overshot the place where he was standing, din even hear his shouting. After getting him to the co room, realised that he had no scores, so have to call wang yue down from hostel (sorry about that) and get scores from her (imagine making two trips from the co room to the RI Boarding successively, really tiring). After that lao zhou practiced and practiced and I screwed up and screwed up until he threatened to use a durian and throw at me. Then later went to chess competition and lost both games that I am supposed to win. Bad day.

Have being listening to my music cds over and over again and getting sick of them. Lack of nice music is a sure way to get very sian while mugging for common test. Feeling like there is something missing from my life, a feeling of being lost in the middle of an ocean, no lighthouse to guide my way. Haiz, dun know why like feeling like that. Is this the 'identity crisis' that psychologists have being mentioning? Well, dun know whether its going to be a good thing or bad one.

Maybe I should just think less and do more 'correct' things. But some thoughts kept reappearing in my mind, can't get rid of them. Sad...