Monday, March 28, 2005

Got back three of my common test papers back today. Was really disappointed with them, especially the maths papers. Should have gotten much better in both papers, lots of careless mistakes made in the papers, should not forgive myself for such stupid mistakes like not knowing how to do implicite differenciation and forgetting to mulitply and divide simple numbers. And not really happy with econs either, also lots of stupid mistakes and others. Must get more clever in exams and not wanting to kill myself for stupid mistakes.

Friday, March 25, 2005

Common test finally over. Worrying about SAT now. Have been playing computer games for the past day, giving myself a break (too many breaks given to myself already). Tmr CO practice from morning to noon. Second intake J1s coming (most likely), meeting my junior once again, officially this time. Feeling happy about it, haha. Its always nice to meet old friends again.

Wednesday, March 23, 2005

Hate myself for screwing up the F Maths paper today. Figured out the harder questions, but forgot how to do the simple implict integration, lost fourteen marks for nothing. Its not like I dun know how to do. If thats the case then I will not be so angry with myself. But its just pure stupidity that I lost marks. Was feeling damn angry with myself after the test. How could I have done such a stupid thing! Haiz... too late to regrate now, must do better for physics tomorrow.

Monday, March 21, 2005

Tmr is common test (for me). Doing last minute mugging now. Haiz. Tests are really irritating, but are unavoidable. Can only try to do my best to do well in tests and make me feel happy. Three days and the common test will be over. But there are more and more tests coming in the future and I am not sure if I can prepare adeuately for every test while trying to do my school work and practice for syf at the same time. Haiz. Just watched a horrible scene on the TV, hope it will not affect my mood for tomorrow's test. Going to sleep now. Its 12:18 already.

Saturday, March 19, 2005

This holiday doesn't feel like a holiday at all (I suppose its true for most of the J2s). Have being invvolved in the cchess competition on tuesday and wednesday, but lost terribly, lots of stupid moves made. Must be more awake when playing (at like 9pm in the night). Wednesday went for co practice, firstly, overshot the bus stop and had to walk a long way back. After reaching, Aaron called and said he is coming to play zhong sheng. Went to meet him but ran too fast so overshot the place where he was standing, din even hear his shouting. After getting him to the co room, realised that he had no scores, so have to call wang yue down from hostel (sorry about that) and get scores from her (imagine making two trips from the co room to the RI Boarding successively, really tiring). After that lao zhou practiced and practiced and I screwed up and screwed up until he threatened to use a durian and throw at me. Then later went to chess competition and lost both games that I am supposed to win. Bad day.

Have being listening to my music cds over and over again and getting sick of them. Lack of nice music is a sure way to get very sian while mugging for common test. Feeling like there is something missing from my life, a feeling of being lost in the middle of an ocean, no lighthouse to guide my way. Haiz, dun know why like feeling like that. Is this the 'identity crisis' that psychologists have being mentioning? Well, dun know whether its going to be a good thing or bad one.

Maybe I should just think less and do more 'correct' things. But some thoughts kept reappearing in my mind, can't get rid of them. Sad...

Wednesday, March 09, 2005

At library now. Just feel like putting in an entry for stress relieve. I HATE TESTS!!!!!!!!! Ok, feel better now. I STILL HATE TESTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hmm, rate of mood change from sad to happy decreasing due to diminishing marginal returns to scale (full of crap). But GP is more like crapping right? So is econs. The difference is between people who are good crapers and people who are bad crappers, or people who are sensible crappers or nonsensical crappers (i am the latter). Missing Chun at CO today. So sad. I rather (or everyone rather) play Chun at CO than go for GP test. Anyone who disagrees can go and die (sorry for being so vulgur). Ok, got to go and mug GP now (the power of the mere human being cannot be compared to the power of nature).

Sunday, March 06, 2005

Its being a long while since I last posted something on my blog. It seems that I actually have nothing much to talk about. Many others have lots of incidents to say every, yet I seem to feel that everyday is the same, no change. Sigh, why is it like that? Is it something wrong with me or what?

Ok, mournings aside. Was at the hall at RJ on friday and watching the release of A-level, and asking around for the results of my seniors. Happy that the school has done well, and most of my seniors too, but also feeling stressed. Something called living under the shadows of great seniors.

Then later went to chess club AGM, and a J1 complained to me that he was chased after my a girl having a terrible crush on him, and asked me for methods of getting rid of her. What a horrible person! Dun know how to treasure a girl! Later went to mos burger for dinner with chess club friends at mos burger, my first time there (surprise for a person like me). The burger there is quite nice, only too small, not enough for my stomach.

Then saturday went to CO, just sit around and play sheng. Talked with fellow sheng players and screwing up while playing songs. Die. How ah? Still cannot keep my beat steady.