Friday, November 26, 2004

Back from Malaysia. Malaysia not fun at all, nothing much see. Only memory is riding on the bus and sleeping. Went to Genting on first day, quite good luck, went into casino and won some money. The cable car ride is quite fun and exciting, lots of fake elephants and tigers on the way. Then went to Ioph and went to some cave, and after that took a ride to Penang. The snake temple there is quite interesting, lots of snakes in the temple and around it (found one on a tree in front of the temple). Made my mother terrified. Also went to the see side hawker stall, but the place seemed so dirty that my mother and I dare not eat anything. Then went to buy some fireworks and played them. Also visited some famous temples in Penang. There is a large statue of Guan Yin there. Then also went to some so called night market, but not fun at all, the stalls sell all the same things. Wasted time only. After that went to KL, saw the Batu caves and climbed up, then went to the Twin Towers and also a mall nearby, found a Kinokuniya there and bought Kang Xi Da Di. Also took the KL monorail. Then went to Malaka and had lunch at a Nyonya restraunt, but the food there all had chilly, and I nearly ate plain rice. Then went back to Singapore. Very sian holiday (as sian as this blog).

P.S. I take my hat off to those who really finished reading this entry.

Monday, November 22, 2004

AWAY AGAIN
Haiz, going to miss chatting with friends.

Saturday, November 20, 2004

I was having dinner with my parents tonight, then as we went to shop around, I sudddenly have this lonely feeling, that there seem to be not really many people who really understands me, the real me. Why do I appear so bored everyday? Why do I like computer games so much? Not at least my parents, or else they will not insist on bringing me out to those boring shops every day, or always wanting to bring me out on tours. I really wonder...

Then I was thinking, what have I achieved this year. Have I managed to please my parents? No, for I still get nagged at for playing too much computer games. Have I managed to make my peers at least not angry with me? No, for I have offended many, from my pw mates to my schoolmates. Have I pleased myself? No, I am not really pleased with my results. I asked myself, could I have done better, could I have achieved higher marks if I have not slacked so much and wasted time on the computer games? I really dun know. Maybe I could have achieved better marks if I have studied throughout the whole year like how I study before the promos. But what is the cost of the better marks? Less enjoyment? Me going crazy? I dun know really. Am I a failure? Have I failed in achieving all my aims?

I now dun even know if I understand myself. What has caused my character? I remember that I used to be a very active, a very extrovert person. But now i look at myself, why have I become such a boring person, a person with few words, an introvert? Where have the previous me gone to? Is this a natural progression in life, or is the change in the character caused by a change in the environment?

Behind those smiles on my face, is my heart also smiling or is it bleeding? I hate concelling my feelings, but finding myself forced to. I really want to please my parents, I really want to appear strong, but my weak side is surfacing rapidly. I really hate being alone, but finding myself in an island in the middle of the ocean.

Tonight will be a sleepless night...

Friday, November 19, 2004

Went blog hopping today.
Read a lot of blogs and postings about how the owner is feeling
Then came back and look at my own blog
Why I never post such things
Is it because

1. I really have no such problems
2. I dare not post such things
3. I am cold-blooded

Hope its not the third one

Seriously, I do not really have this identity crisis, or whatever it is called

Or maybe it has not appeared

Confused...

Thursday, November 18, 2004

Hehehe, back from holiday. Not fun really, sentosa nothing to see. Not that I trying to behave like a whatever (I dun know what adjective pple will use), but really feel that sentosa is a sian place. All the attractions for the foreign tourists only. Haiz. So stayed in the room and played cards with parents. Haiz again. Then my parents gone mad and decided to go round popping by every cafe on the island. Nearly killed me with all the coffee. Haiz, luckly still alive. Nothing much to write really.

Monday, November 15, 2004

AWAY

Yesterday my primary school friend came to my house, and thus I was able to get back in contact with many of my primary school friends and classmates. Ha, feeling nice and happy about it. Finally my contact is getting longer. My friends on friendster is also getting more numerous. Hope this will be a good begining to my attempts to expand my social circle.

Friday, November 12, 2004

Must have gone mad recently, doing all the things that I will not do previously. Just got myseelf a friendster account. Must be getting too bored. Haiz...

Thursday, November 11, 2004

Well, the title speakes for itself. Seems like everyone is dead. No one online for the whole day already. Dun know where they are. Haiz, dun know what to do. SO BORING!!! Haiz, hope tomorrow I will have something nicer to write about, or else I can just copy and paste today's post onto tomorrow's entry. Haiz...

Haha, why did I put that acronym there? Dun you think it quite fit me? Yummy and Delicious and all. Hmm, must be getting too bored recently. Got nothing better to do. Haiz, so sian... dun know where all the rest of the people disappear to. Haiz, hope saturday arrive sooner so that I can go to co and meet at least my co friends. Haiz, SIAN...

Tuesday, November 09, 2004

Feeling stupid about my last entry, so philosophical. Think maybe I shouldn't be thinking too much about this, or should I? I don't know. Sometimes I felt that thinking too much just makes you feel sad and depressed, but at other times some things happen that just set you think about such things such as the meaning of life and all the rest... Haiz, feeling really confused.

Recently have not being able to do much except playing computer games and playing chinese chess online. But today just lost another three games due to purely stupid and careless mistakes. There was one game where I missed out a kill move even. Haiz, so sad... Dun know how to get rid my absoulately bad habit of carelessness... sigh...

Monday, November 08, 2004

Just read my friend's blog. She said a lot of negetive things in her last entry. I felt very confused. Is what she said about the world really true, or false? I cannot say, and is not in the position to say anything about it also. Maybe we can just forget about the negetive things in our life, and try to imagine that the world is very nice (the recent huang na incident showed this); or we can also imagine that the world is very dark and evil (which is what many will tell you). But I think that whatever the world maybe, we should be positive about our life, always positive, so that we will not regrate when we look back at our life. This, I think, should be of our aim of life.

Thursday, November 04, 2004

PW finally OVER!!! That GDBH thing is finally over. Feel like celebrating. But so sad, no one to celebrate with. Sign. My primary school friend recently fell in love, published a very *ahem* blog, really very *ahem*... haiz, dun know what to feel... envious, sad, or others? Dun know lah, forget about it lah!

Monday, November 01, 2004

Hahaha, doing pw now, using someone else's com to update my blog...